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Vineri…

Ziua 1 din 30…sau ziua 1 din restul? Sa fiu asa puternica oare?

Am uitat sa trag jaluzeaua, inainte sa ma culc. Razele soarelui mangaiau oglinda de la masuta de toaleta. Stiam deja ca o sa imi fie greu sa ma privesc in oglinda. Promisesem ceva cu doar cateva ore in urma. De ce o fi asa greu sa iti asumi niste lucruri? E vorba doar de mancare nu?

Am mai lenevit in pat, incercand sa ma pregatesc pentru imaginea din oglinda. Dar de fapt ma simteam si slabita.

Durerile de spate nu prea mi-au permis sa ma odihnesc cum trebuie. Ieri am avut o sedinta de kinetoterapie si pentru prima oara, dupa 2 ore de exercitii intense, am facut si masaj. Sunt o persoana care rezista destul de bine la durere si tin sa precizez ca a fost dureros(pe o scara de la 1 la 10, as acorda 7). Hmmm, nu stiu cu ce sa asociez durerea, dar o sa incerc. Ati facut vreodata Moldamin? Oooo da, ganditi-va ca ati facut cate o injectie in ambele….Stiu, ma plang, dar in acelasi timp, sunt constienta ca totul este spre binele meu.

Inca lenevind in pat, am inceput sa ma gandesc : “ce o fi fost in capul meu sa incep dieta de azi, cand toata lumea incepe lucrurile de luni?” Cu durerile astea, tot ce imi doream era sa fiu rasfatata, ca un copil cu o bucata de ciocolata…Oreo…ou Kinder…anything? 🙁

Orice obicei nou incepe de luni. Asa ni se induce de peste tot in social media. Dar oare de ce? E ceva psihologic, oamenii au impresia ca au nevoie de o oarecare pregatire, pana se invata cu ideea, pana fac un plan, pana analizeaza posibilitatile financiare sau alte lucruri si echivaleaza mereu ziua de luni ca inceput de saptamana cu inceputul unei noi vieti sau unui nou obicei.

Am inceput deja cu scuzele….modalitatea creierului de a se apara de schimbarile care urmeaza…Dar deja stiam cum sa le inving. Trag aer adanc in piept, numar pana la 5 si o fac. Asta e tot.

Am vazut mai demult un filmulet cu regula asta si am reusit de fiecare data. See here.

Ei bine, poate nu m-am pregatit pentru decizia pe care am luat-o avand in vedere ca m-am hotarat de ieri ca azi vreau sa incep. De ce sa complicam lucrurile cand pot fi atat de simple? Ele ies asa frumoase, pe nepregatite. Asa ca azi e luni al meu. Asa cu frigiderul aproape gol, cu ceva alimente, cat sa am doar pentru ziua de azi.

Rezumat la frigider : cam 100 gr de branza de vaca (cas), o portie de ficatei cu cartofi natur, 3 rosii, 2 castraveti, o jumatate de salata verde, spanac proaspat, morcovi, lamai, ghimbir, ardei rosu, 2 avocado. Si cateva fructe : o banana, portocala, 2 kiwi si un mar. Dar mi-au ajuns perfect.

08:20… 5 secunde si m-am dat jos din pat. Nu am avut multe optiuni pentru micul dejun, asa ca am optat pentru smoothie. Sucul de la portocala, 2 kiwi si un mar le-am amestecat cu mixerul.

Am turnat smoothie-ul intr-o cana si l-am baut cu paiul. Asa imi face mie placere.

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Smoothie-ul a avut un gust foarte bun, dar mi-a iesit o cantitate mai mica decat ceea ce consumam de obicei. Nu pot sa zic ca mi-a fost foarte foame pana la pranz, dar cu siguranta as fi devorat ca un porcusor niste migdale crude daca le aveam.

Trebuia sa mananc din 4 in 4 ore asa ca pranzul l-am programat pentru 12:30. Mi-am pregatit o salata consistenta dintr-un avocado, o rosie, o jumatate de salata verde si 30 gr branza. Nu stiu in ce masura va pot face poze la masa de pranz si cea de dupa amiaza, avand in vedere politica din compania unde lucrez, dar cu siguranta va voi impartasi retetele pentru urmatoarele zile, pentru ca voi fi nevoita sa gatesc in fiecare zi/ la doua zile, altceva.

Pe la 14:30 mi s-a cam facut foame. Ce e cu salatele astea?? Zici ca mananci un bol intreg si e de ajuns, dar se evapora in stomac in 2 ore.

Recunosc, nu a fost o zi stresanta, cred ca cel mai mult am pofte de a rontai cand sunt stresata. Dar, deja se auzeau niste zgomote ciudate din stomacul meu. Ma gandeam sa nu sperii vreun coleg care trece pe langa biroul meu. O stiti pe aia cu “daca ti-e foame, bea un pahar cu apa?”.

Mi-am facut un ceai verde cu lamaie. Chiar mi-era sete de fapt. Desi mi-am luat apa si am baut de-a lungul zilei, cred ca nu a fost de ajuns. Trebuie neaparat sa invat sa beau mai multa apa. Fortat, ca de altfel nu simt niciodata nevoia de apa. Corp defect sau minte?

Pentru masa de dupa amiaza(16:30), am ales portia de ficatei cu cartofi natur. Nu va imaginati portia de ficatei servita la restaurant. Au fost doua bucati si o jumatate de cartof fiert. Dar de fapt ar trebui sa mananc la o masa 150 gr de carne si 20 gr de paste integrale/orez/cartof dulce. Si totusi, mi-a tinut perfect de foame pana la urmatoarea masa (20:30). Am mancat o a doua salata din rosii, castraveti si ardei rosu.

My thoughts?

Cred ca a fost o zi aglomerata si nu prea am avut timp sa ma gandesc la decizia pe care am luat-o. Pana am ajuns in pat.

Si mi-am dat seama de cateva lucruri pe care le-am facut. Azi am zis NU poftelor. Azi am facut alegeri pentru mine, am fost atenta la orele de masa, la ce mananc, la cum raspunde corpul meu. Si am simtit iar ce simt mereu la sala cand ma privesc in oglinda, dupa antrenament. Multumire.

Oare cum o sa fie maine?

Stii, daca vrei ceva asa si asa, o sa obtii un rezultat tot asa si asa. Fii hotarat!


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Friday…

First day out of 30..or is it first day of the rest of my life? Am I that strong?

I forgot to lower the blinds, so the sun was shinning in my vanity’s mirror. I knew already, it will be difficult to see myself in the mirror. I made a promise just few hours ago. Why is it so hard to face the challenge? It’s only about food, right? Is it?

I just wanted to be lazy in bed, trying to prepare myself for the image in the mirror. I was also feeling a bit weakened.

These back pains didn’t allow me to sleep that well. I had a physiotherapy session the other day and for the first time, after two hours of intense exercises, I had a massage. I am “strength over pain” kind of girl and believe me when I say it was painful (scale 1 to 10, I will give it a 7). Hmmm, I don’t really know how to describe this pain. When you were kids, did you had Moldamin, when you caught a cold? Ohhh yeah, think about it : one shot for every… 🙂 I know I may sound like a whiny, however, I am aware that everything is for my health.

While I was still in bed, I started to think “what the h.. was in my mind to start this challenge today (Friday) when everyone starts doing new things on Monday? With all the pain, I only wanted to be spoiled like a kid and eat some sweets…Oreo biscuits…Kinder egg…anything? 🙁

Rumor has it that you should always start new habits on Monday. The idea it’s everywhere on social media. It’s psychological I guess, because people may think they need a period to prepare themselves, to get used to the idea, to make a plan, to  think about how much money will spend and they always connect Monday the first day of the week with a new beginning.

Ha, I’m already starting to find an excuse…how the brain is trying to defend from all the feelings a change could bring. But I already knew how to defeat it. A deep breath, count for 5 seconds and do it. It’s that simple.

I saw this rule to kill the fear, few months ago. Watch it here if you want.

Well, I did not prepare myself for this challenge as I decided, just like that, in a moment. Why complicate things when they are so simple? It’s better this way. So today it’s my Monday. With an almost empty fridge with food only for one day. Perfect!

Fridge situation : abt. 100 gr. of cheese, chicken liver with boiled potato, 3 tomatoes, 2 cucumbers, half of green lettuce, fresh spinach, carrots, lemons, ginger, bell pepper, 2 avocado. And some fruits : 1 banana, 1 orange, 2 kiwi and 1 apple. But they were enough for the day.

08:20 a.m. Took a deep breath, counted 5 sec and left the bed. I did not have much choices for breakfast, so I went for a smoothie. I mixed an orange, 2 kiwi and an apple.

I poured the mixture in a smoothie jar. That’s how I like it.

If you want a jar like this, you can find it here.

The smoothie was delicious, however was less then the quantity I am used to drink. I cannot say I starved until lunch, but for sure I could have eaten like a lil piggy some almonds if I had.

As it should pass 4 hours between meals, I scheduled the lunch for 12:30. I prepared a salad with an avocado, a tomato, half of lettuce and 30g cheese. I don’t know if I will be able to take photos of my lunch and afternoon meal, taking into consideration the company’s policy where I am working. But for sure I will share the recipes for the next days, because I will need to cook every day or every two days.

After two hours, I was hungry. What’s wrong with these salads? You’re thinking a huge plate willl be enough, but it’s like is evaporating in your stomach in only 2 hours.

Honestly, it was not a stressful day. Somehow, I’m craving more for sweets/food when I’m stressed. I could hear already some strange noises coming from my stomach. I could easily scare a colleague passing by my desk. Do you know that saying : “If you’re hungry, drink a glass of water!”?

I prepared a green tea and added some lemon juice. I think it’s real. I was thirsty. Although I drank a lot of water, I think it was not enough. I really need to drink more water. Even tough I don’t feel the need. Dysfunctional body or mind?

For the afternoon meal (16:30) : chicken livers with boiled potatoes. Haha, don’t imagine a regular plate that you would serve at the restaurant. There were only two pieces of liver and half of potato. The rule is to eat like 150 g meat(chicken, beaf, pig, turkey) and 20 g of pasta, rice or sweet potatoes. Even though it was a smaller portion, I did not feel the need to eat. For the fourth meal, I prepared another salad with one tomato, one cucumber and a bell pepper.

My thoughts?

I think I had a lot of things to do today and I did not have much time to digest this decision. Until I went to bed.

And I realised the things I did. Today I sad NO to cravings. Today I made choices for myself, I was careful when and what to eat and how my body reacted. I felt again the same way I used to feel after my class at gym. Gratitude.

I’m wondering how tomorrow will be?

You know, if you kinda want something, you will kinda have a result. Just decide!